This afternoon I really got that surge of energy necessary for contemplating how lax I’ve been over the past few months. Past six months really.
So, tonight will come a huge update with regards to CD reviews as I attempt to review everything I’ve been sent recently. And a gigantic apology to everyone who has spent money on stamps waiting patiently for me to review stuff.
Reasons abound; fundamentally boils down to:
1) alternative / guitar based music making me generally angry, festering negative energies in my system, making me have fights with people who I liked a lot and really didn’t want to have fights with, making tensions, making me write negative things just because I couldn’t think of anything good to say, making me averse to ever discovering anything old because it had influenced all this horrible music that I had no interest in and was making me angry, actually turning me in to someone I didn’t even recognise as I was that negative and horrible and ANGRY
you get the idea
2) getting so excited by dance music, and getting excited about meeting excitable people, feeling so happy in those environs, finding beats and hearts that went together and were fun and non-critical and loving and happy and happy and happy
3) having no impending deadlines and no real stress to create a deadline
4) on the other hand, having so much stress that my brain seems to have actually stopped working and the hint of a little stress makes me do something different like go for a walk, dance about, go to the gym, do some housework, do some daydreaming… anything but treat the source of the stress through the root, i.e. tackle it
all this applies to my terrible communications with all of the lovely bands who have asked to play at one of my nights and I just can’t summon the strength to say ‘well I’ll get back to you sometime’, instead leaving 1000 read messages with no reply in my myspace
anyway, the realisation. Old Chinese medical philosophy made me see the light. In Chinese medicine, they say that everyone should be really ill at least once a year, and this should not be treated in any way. It’s your body’s way of getting rid of everything bad that has accumulated over the intervening period since your last illness. Negative Chi, in all forms - from infection, from stresses, other external energies. etc. Since learning this (well, probably before this, as I have always been odd in this respect), aged around 18, I have refused to take any form of painkiller or ‘treatments’ for colds and flu, which effectively prevent your body from expressing the symptoms of illness - you block the bad Chi in for another year, maybe.
So I had a bad cold or maybe the flu (though I doubt it) for about 4 days, and let it run it’s course however painful that was. I went to the gym today and realised that I had been blocking a lot of negative Chi from it’s escape - evidenced in my hugely increasing pile of flagged emails and promo CDs.
write the review. write the email. release the Chi!!!
I am looking forward to tonight. fingers crossed I’ll get through it all. You’ll see the evidence in the morning no doubt.
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Posted: January 16th, 2008 under Info.
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